This past weekend was sort of a bust. I got to learn many times over that in most situations, with the exception of emergencies, it is best NOT to push myself to the limit and past it.
With so many obligations to fulfill I literally had no time to myself this past week or weekend, and I know that many people with very busy lives experience this nearly all the time. But I don't necessarily think that form of lifestyle is VERY OK. I believe that if we all should have a little wiggle room to pursue whatever we want and need, individually, to make ourselves happy.
Pushing yourself to give more and more and more ALL the time, giving 110% or whatever, is not actually that healthy. In our culture, I have been pressed into the thought that success = sacrafice all the time no matter what. Money is the great god of happiness and self-respect, and if you like your job or hate your job it doesn't matter, cause you have to do it. It's all the better if you hate your job- you are an instant martyr and can feel good about all the "giving up" you have been doing. It makes "getting" feel like you definitely deserve it.
(OBVIOUSLY not to say anything degrading to all those hard-working folks and certainly every situation deserves a case-by-case review.)
As I become more self-aware I am finding that I can set my boundaries with greater ease and less confusion. The world opens up and time to do art or go exploring outside becomes just as important as time to clean the bathroom (or whatever else unfulfilling but necessary time requirement might be demanded of me.)
Speaking of exploring outside, this past weekend's high-lites included several trips to the cabin and a general feeling that I wanted to be there more. I found alot of bones in the woods which went into the bone collection, a sort of creepy undertaking that I find fascinating. At this point I have several skulls and ribs, and I don't feel at all goth about it. I just think bones are interesting.
Anyways, happy monday.
2 comments:
interesting indeed... hey check out the photo i put up on my blog from last summer. ull love it and instantly feel like it's summer again :)
We, too, have a bone collection! A bunch of skulls (beaver, mouse, fish, duck and really not sure what the other one is, maybe a cormorant??), a jaw bone (possibly from an elk), and a couple moose antlers.
I do need to check this cabin of yours out.
And I'm thinkin' it's a good thing you're getting in touch with your non-stress side since pretty soon you're going to need all the help you can get recalling that side, I'm guessing. I mean with the house and all. :)
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