short of where I want to be but almost there

I must say that I agree wholeheartedly with Jill on Dead Like Me...one of the best shows ever, ever, ever. It's rare to find such a show...especially one where the main female character is not totally unbelievable, perfect (with of course perfect flaws,) conventionally lovely, and just sort of NOT A SURPRISE.

Every time I get sick, I end up with an infection in my lungs and I'm out for like a week taking antibiotics. (Another reason to really stop smoking this time!) So I feel deflated but have a ton of stuff to do, like making sure I have plenty of work for the summer and that takes some time and effort.

Somehow, I also received the gift of many painful zits across my forehead this week. I think it is either toxins clearing out, poor diet, not washing my pillow enough or maybe just revenge from the heavens. I'm looking up natural blemish treatments because I dont have time or energy to go to Whole Foods and buy something nice and overpriced to put on these unsightly demons, and nothing I have ever used from the drugstore ever worked or did not irritate my sensitive skin.

Speaking of, what is everyone's take on sunscreen? It's like the biggest skin crime not to wear it since, I don't know, using Covergirl instead of BareMinerals?

-Which is another point I will get to in a second-
But for now. I don't trust chemical sunscreen, because 1.) I've read studies that it actually increases sun damage unless applied in a scientifically accurate manner (the details of which I have long since forgotten) and 2.) I am just waiting for the storm to sweep across the nation headlining that suncreen causes cancer like no one's business. I know there are chemical free sunscreens, and I also know that Juice Beauty produces some of them, so I guuueess I trust that. But I will not be dumping lots of toxic chemicals on my sweet young skin because Self magazine recommends Neutrogena Oil Free Sunscreen applied every ten minutes for the rest of your days or some shit.

I actually read in one of Real Simple's articles that one must choose a body moisturizer with lots of "emollients like petrolatum" in order to get the best hydration. UM, excuse moi, but isn't petrolatum and paraben, and arent paraben's the new antichrist? So you can't believe everything you read, and no matter what the trend you have GOT to listen to your gut and do your damn homework.

Anyways. After using Bare Escentuals I was in a state of excitement over this delightful product- UNTIL I found that it had begun drying my already dry skin to a flaky mess. And I will tell you why- mica. Mica is a silicate mineral that basically absorbs any hydration or oil from the skin. That is one of it's jobs- it's other major jo is to impart that glowing luminosity that Bare Minerals is known for. They don't tell you that at BareEscentuals and I was able to find out because my happy job allows me to travel and experience wonderful stores like Beauty and Main in Andover, Ma. They really know their shit, and gave me the lowdown on what was wrong. They also recommended Laura Mercier Mineral Powder because the mica is replaced with oyster shells.

I would suggest that those of you Sephora addicts take a day and visit Saghi at Beauty and Main because she can really clear up your skin dilemmas. I was very much impressed and their consultations are free and thorough. (My mom is allergic to jojoba oil and they did some research and found ALL the alternate names for jojoba so she wouldn't purchase something bad for her accidentally. And at this point she was just a walk-in customer, had not purchased anything.)

I always feel slightly in awe of establishments that offer great service because they are just so passionate about their products and line of work- this in the face of big business where the employees just want you out of their face, could give a shit about the product, and can't wait to get out of the stale reconditioned air so they can smoke a Marb light in the back of the building on their 15 minute break (and I don't blame them.)

Anyways I am back to the point where I am not craving a salt lick and could get down with a nice salad and some fresh veggies. Why do I crave the nastiest food when I am sick? Like chicken nuggets, tater tots, potato chips and cheddar cheese pretzel bits. I'll make a compromise and have Boca nuggets, tater tots, and salad with balsamic vin.