Tuesday, June 3, 2008
rock it dont stop it
On our way back we spotted IKEA from the highway and pulled in- I have never been to IKEA and didn't necessarily want to because I thought the quality would be cheesy. Which it is, sometimes. But this place is a dreamworld for anyone on a budget looking for some new stuff. For one, it is f-ing huge, and you have to walk around the whole store to get to the exit (of course so you will buy more stuff as you try to escape the madness.) For two, it is effing cheap. For three, it is really fucking awesome- the designs! The colors! The styles! Oh my.
So we basically ditched the whole kitchen cabinets/countertops/ normal kitchen layout idea because we found some rockin' modern looking, free-standing pieces that our kitchen is going to be composed of.
But we won't tell you what it is until it's all done!
It is very exciting to me because the new kitchen is going to cost 1/3 of what a normal kitchen would have, and it is super cool looking- especially combined with the open layout living/sitting/dining room composed of a few key modern furniture peice. Hallelujah!
So now I have to keep in mind that the next time I want another martini, or a new shirt, or a fabulous color of eyeshadow, I am going to have to pass it up and put the money right into savings. All of the money I spend on a daily basis adds up so fast it's ridiculous, and when I think how much I could have saved already this past year it makes me ill.
P.S. Henna party coming up in two weeks... I will send out invites, but please attend even if you don't want me to henna you! I will provide fancy drinks and snacks, bitches.
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
oh my god does she ever stop talking about her hair
So after therapy today I went to Alias salon in Northampton (the reason I chose this salon was because when I was living in NoHo, I accidentally dyed my short hair an ugly green/orange while trying acheive blonde. "Brad" from Alias was my saviour and gave me a fantastic platinum color with dark roots and a choppy cut- something that really only looks good when you are into punk and have short-short hair.) I was lucky enough to get Brad again, and he dyed my poor hair a very dark brown and on a whim I had him cut it much shorter, a really fun layered cut just above my shoulders. I was going to have it cut about 2 inches shorter, the same style, but didn't want to put myself over the edge if I ended up hating it! I do love it and am going to have to go back and have it shorter...it is so swingy and light and fresh...lots of changes are going on in my life and seeing all of that old dead long hair on the floor felt like a sign of the times.
Thursday, May 15, 2008
short of where I want to be but almost there

But for now. I don't trust chemical sunscreen, because 1.) I've read studies that it actually increases sun damage unless applied in a scientifically accurate manner (the details of which I have long since forgotten) and 2.) I am just waiting for the storm to sweep across the nation headlining that suncreen causes cancer like no one's business. I know there are chemical free sunscreens, and I also know that Juice Beauty produces some of them, so I guuueess I trust that. But I will not be dumping lots of toxic chemicals on my sweet young skin because Self magazine recommends Neutrogena Oil Free Sunscreen applied every ten minutes for the rest of your days or some shit.
I actually read in one of Real Simple's articles that one must choose a body moisturizer with lots of "emollients like petrolatum" in order to get the best hydration. UM, excuse moi, but isn't petrolatum and paraben, and arent paraben's the new antichrist? So you can't believe everything you read, and no matter what the trend you have GOT to listen to your gut and do your damn homework.
Anyways. After using Bare Escentuals I was in a state of excitement over this delightful product- UNTIL I found that it had begun drying my already dry skin to a flaky mess. And I will tell you why- mica. Mica is a silicate mineral that basically absorbs any hydration or oil from the skin. That is one of it's jobs- it's other major jo is to impart that glowing luminosity that Bare Minerals is known for. They don't tell you that at BareEscentuals and I was able to find out because my happy job allows me to travel and experience wonderful stores like Beauty and Main in Andover, Ma. They really know their shit, and gave me the lowdown on what was wrong. They also recommended Laura Mercier Mineral Powder because the mica is replaced with oyster shells.
I would suggest that those of you Sephora addicts take a day and visit Saghi at Beauty and Main because she can really clear up your skin dilemmas. I was very much impressed and their consultations are free and thorough. (My mom is allergic to jojoba oil and they did some research and found ALL the alternate names for jojoba so she wouldn't purchase something bad for her accidentally. And at this point she was just a walk-in customer, had not purchased anything.)
I always feel slightly in awe of establishments that offer great service because they are just so passionate about their products and line of work- this in the face of big business where the employees just want you out of their face, could give a shit about the product, and can't wait to get out of the stale reconditioned air so they can smoke a Marb light in the back of the building on their 15 minute break (and I don't blame them.)
Anyways I am back to the point where I am not craving a salt lick and could get down with a nice salad and some fresh veggies. Why do I crave the nastiest food when I am sick? Like chicken nuggets, tater tots, potato chips and cheddar cheese pretzel bits. I'll make a compromise and have Boca nuggets, tater tots, and salad with balsamic vin.Wednesday, May 14, 2008
back to my cranky old self
Yesterday I spent my time being knocked out by cold medicine, watching episodes of Dead Like Me, and looking for pictures of otters on the web. I did not even once have the energy to worry about the fact that the interest rate on my laptop payments to Best Buy went up to 25%.
However today I am very angry about that and wish there was some way to just say screw you Best Buy but obviously they have the upper hand. I hate that shit.
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
The Sick.

Last week I had a big decision to stop smoking. I said to myself, "Self, why don't you stop smoking. Now seems like a good time to do so, wouldn't you concur?" My brain and body overheard and had the following conversation:
Brain: SssssTOP smoking? boo! hiss!
Body: Oh yes, Brain. That's right. Prepare for a hell like no other!
Immediately after I gave it the old quit-quit, I got horribly sick. This has happened before to me, and I don't know if it is because my body knows I am getting sick and is like ix-nay on the utts-bay, farmer brown! You're gonna get a sick! Or else if it is some strange cleansing response to the decision. I definitely feel congestion in my lungs from years and years of badness, so I am grimly awaiting the reflux of it all.
Thus I am stuck on the couch craving salty potato chips and chicken soup with no hydrogenated oils, trashy magazines and chick flicks.
Monday, May 12, 2008
like an old peice of fruit
This topic could relate to any number of the composites of my little life right now, however I will stick with one point and that is the future of our planet/species and what I am doing or not doing in response to the growing everyday issues we face. Part of the problem or part of the solution? I would much prefer to be part of the solution, and that is going to take some reality checks.
For example I am in the process of doing lawnmower research. I could purchase a Toro self-propelled lawnmower for $300 or more. Or, I could purchase a Scott Reel Mower, which is a throwback from the 50's and a machine I would never have thought of purchasing- until I was pricing these silly things out and reading reviews. Reel mowers have gotten a lot of good press lately, believe it or not! They don't require gas, do a pretty good job of cutting the lawn, aren't hard to operate, don't require oil changes, and don't require as many repairs. Plus, when they break they can be fixed- the odd rock will not send it to the graveyard. So my decision is basically made, and I do feel like a granny for it and also will probably be getting my share of shit from someone else because we don't have a fancy schmancy mower, but it falls RIGHT in line with my ideals and that makes me feel good.
I am a huge proponent of doing what feels right. I don't always do this, and it all comes rushing back to me sometimes and I feel inspired to do what I believe in no matter the costs.
On another note, I was standing in the Gardner Ale House on Saturday waiting for a table and some friends, and I had this amazing moment of clarity. My vision literally changed and I thought to myself "Self, this is absolutely your life right now, and you are standing by, on hold. Every moment that goes by is one that you can experience, or you can ignore. What is it going to be, and why?"
Of course, as every day comes and goes this is not foremost on my mind, but at least I had that moment, unlike many other moments.
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
Forthwith
I picked up some Juice Beauty (Jill, see the last testimonial re: Retin A) skincare products today at Whole Foods, where a bunch of organic asparagus costs $5.99 and a jar of imported from Italy marinara sauce is $7.99. Ok, so I am guilty of buying ONE jar of Lucini Hearty Artichoke Tomato sauce, but only to see how it compared to the usual Classico variety. I never go grocery shopping anymore, so it was really sort of fun and not frustrating this time around. I got hummus, Gone crackers, artichokes, asparagus, broccoli, lamb, and etc. of the good foodness. When I start going grocery shopping all the time, instead of ordering pizza and chinese every night, I will start to bitch about the cost of it all. May that time come sooner rather than later, because it will mean I have a snazzy new KiTcHeN to work in-YES.
EVENING menu: ground lamb, diced onions, cinnamon, salt, garlic, cumin, nutmeg cooked together, over wild rice and curried swiss chard.
Doing my homework on skincare has provided me with the information that Juice Beauty is getting kudos all over the place and Kate Hudson "swears by" their Green Apple Peel. If anyone wants to try it, by all means I will share (once). It is supposed to be great, so we shall see.
EXCITED about: the new issue of Marie Claire- their first Grrreeeen edition! Also check OrganicStyle magazine, completely online no paper involved.
BLOG of note: 1plus1 keeps up on the latest in cool junk/fashion/art/beauty that is good for the p-l-a-n-e-t.
Later.
Friday, May 2, 2008
"Who gives a fuck about an Oxford Comma"
Question: How many plastic bottles per day do Americans toss into landfills?
Answer: 30 million
Another point scored for SIGG.
I also found what I was looking for, SORT OF: Jeffrey Campbell Gladiator Sandal. I wanted more of a "rustic look"...like maybe just plain polished leather. I don't know about these...I might just order them and see what I think. Working with kids takes its toll, I guess because now not only do I want to play dress up like a Roman soldier but I also want sparkly ballet flats. Which I have seen mostly only on little girls.
Today's blog of note is Decor8. This blog is incredible, and Holly Becker (who also happens to work for Real Simple) updates it everyday with all sorts of eye candy. It is a great inspiration for anyone who has a lurking creative underbelly that they are just itching to roll over and expose for all the world to see. I have found countless sites from her blog, including the site I got my new silhouette stamp from.
Today heralds much working on the house, scraping yucky plaster shit from the ceiling and removing tiles from the bathroom walls, then getting ready for silhouettes at Curious George in Cambridge tomorrow, which I am actually very much looking forward to.
Also, if anyone has the desire to come and hang out on Sunday for a minute to watch us put up a dormer and check out the house, feel free! Bring beer. Heh.
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Maybe Today

So I have been thinking about spring/summer shopping and the thought of going to the mall makes me feel weird inside, because I can picture my sorry self tottering around and not finding anything good to buy. Thus I have been searching around the internet for small(er) companies who specialize in sustainable fabrics without breaking the bank...as I am sure you have all heard me crowing about recently, I am striving for quality vs. quantity, a piece that costs a little more but I will love vs. 3 pieces that are cheap but don't I don't feel so much like a million bucks in.
I found some very wonderful yoga pants from OmGirl- their nomad pants are amazing. Soft, -plushy, but not by any means fleece-y or too sweatshirt-y. I could literally live in these, and that is exactly the phrase that got me to buy them at http://www.barefootyoga.com/. You need to understand that yoga pants are a staple in my work apparel, as I NEED to be comfortable to focus on art, especially when I have to make folded paper look like someone's face. I've tried looking all professional and having the career attire, like "banker pants" or button down shirts but always end up cranky about it, unless of course the banker pants are so comfortable, or the button down shirts actually button down without the infamous keyhole pop right at the bra area.
I would love to make, or design at least, my own apparel, but haven't the time. When I started silhouettes I was all "oh, I will have time to do whatever I want to do, no 9-5 for me" but instead it is like swallowing my entire life at this point. Which will change, I know, and I AM happy to be making the cake right now.
Another obsession has been gladiator sandals...not "gladiator inspired", but the real freakin' deal...strappy sandals that go over my calf, up to the knee, and are not those silly shoelace looking sandals that you are somehow supposed to lace up your leg and have them stay up without having little bulges inbetween (impossible! unless you are a pro tennis player, in which case I salute you.) This idea may go the way of the fanny pack, but as I have been searching for them for several summers now I really doubt it. So, if you see me looking like a roman soldier the next time we meet, please congratulate me on it. Really.
Friday, April 25, 2008
The Body Is a Temple...?
As you all know, I smoke cigarettes and have for a long time...8+ years at this point. This freaks me out- that is a long time to have gone by and I barely even noticed as the years disappeared.
At this point in my life I will have to wholeheartedly admit I am addicted and that, instead of making me feel guilty anymore, makes me very, very angry. I'm pissed that I have developed such a penchant for poison and I'm even angrier that it will be a long painful process to develop better habits, and that I may always want to smoke a cigarette. Jesus! What a pain in the f*ing ass.
I don't feel all high on my horse about it today, I feel uncomfortable. I have no choice but to stop, my body tells me, but the gnawing sensation that I want something to take up the space in my hands and punctuate my moments never quits.
Friday, April 18, 2008
Hair


Yesterday I went out on a limb and got my hair cut, colored, and highlighted. This is a big deal for me because I have been struggling with my hair for centuries...from dreads to shaving it ALL OFF twice, cutting it myself and experimenting with many unsuccessful home dye jobs that inevitably sent me running to the salon to have it corrected, and costing millions.
Thursday, April 10, 2008
Annabella Rose
Thursday, April 3, 2008
Phew
Let me tell you, there is a whole lotta shiz in that yard. It was not noticeable at first, but when we started raking, it was like a redneck archaeological jackpot. I think these folks literally just threw their trash in the yard.
A PARTIAL list of what has been uncovered:
1. The remains of a deck that was torn down.
2. Toys, toys, toys... a dinosaur, turtle, Stone Cold Steve Austin action figure, half of Spiderman, to name a few
3. Random boots and shoes
3. Ore Ida Potato Puffs bags, soda bottles, half full bottles of Arrow Blackberry Brandy
4. Rakes, shovels
5. Hoses
6. Dog collar
7. Broken glass
8. Beads and little bits of plastic everywhere, probably from broken toys
9. Pooper scooper and cat box
10. About 15 basketballs, baseballs, wiffle balls, bats, and soccer balls
And this is just the beginning of the treasures we have found. When we first looked at the house, which was last summer, the foreclosure/mortgage people had come in with two huge dumpsters and cleaned the house OUT. I'm glad they did cause when I saw the dumpster full of trash/furniture/wall to wall carpet soaked in cat pee last year, I was not sorry I didn't get to help with that project. Yuck!
Also, there are several tree houses, dog houses, and makeshift animal pens in the back yard, or rather the back woods. Lots of trash everywhere there, too. They kept chickens and goats so that must have been where they lived. They did a great job with the animal pens, sinking concrete and metal poles into the ground so that should be fun to dig out. ha.
True Story- this was in the newspaper last year, I'm not making it up!
I guess the folks who owned the house before us, (after being foreclosed on,) found a bag of money on the side of the road. (WHO finds a bag of money on the side of the road???) Anyway, apparently it feel off an armored car. Since loose lips sink ships, the people who found the money were caught- and it was discovered that they had invested the $10,000 from the bag into: XBoxes, Playstations, Wii, 4 wheelers, junk, etc.
Dude. If I found 10k, firstly I wouldn't tell anyone. Secondly, I might go on a mild shopping spree. But I would definitely not squander my good fortune on freakin' game systems and a buncha shiz that devalued as soon as it left the store.
Sunday, March 30, 2008
say it in broken english
"The Feast of Love" is a movie I would not recommend to anybody. The plot was predictable to a fault, it's cheesy one-liners were off-putting, but more so was the blatant fact that Morgan Freeman plays- GUESS WHAT? No, really, guess. I'll give you some options:
1. The wise old man friend that everyone looks to for advice, always remaining calm and thoughtful.
2. The wise old man friend that everyone looks to for advice, always remaining calm and thoughtful.
3. The wise old man friend that everyone looks to for advice, always remaining calm and thoughtful.
Did you notice all options were the same? Thats because THAT'S THE ONLY ROLE HE IS EVER IN! It is insufferable to watch at this point, in any film.
The next up was Broken English, and I loved it. I am a sucker for movies that involve romantic and spontaneous foreign men and rash decisions.
Today we are meeting with a man to check out the septic on the new hizzy. We are keeping our fingers crossed that we won't have to replace the septic, so today will be a good indication of whether that will happen.
Thursday, March 27, 2008
marzipan
1+1 is a blog that I've been reading lately, although it is a little confusing to navigate. It is hosted by Uber, a site that lets you sign up and create your own website/blog, and add friends, etc... check it out.
Etsy is "your place to buy and sell all things handmade" and is a good way to score one of a kind jewelry, artwork, etc ... and you can search by area, if local is your cup of tea. I haven't bought anything but am always looking through for new inspiration. I guess being an artist it would be noble of me to support fellow artists, however being an artist, I am also broke, what a surprise! Haha.
And deserving of a re-visit is Homestarrunner!!! This brings me back...
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
Long Live Enthusiasm!
Monday, March 24, 2008
My heart's a hobo / loves to go out berry pickin' / hates to hear alarm clocks tickin'.....

This past weekend was sort of a bust. I got to learn many times over that in most situations, with the exception of emergencies, it is best NOT to push myself to the limit and past it.
With so many obligations to fulfill I literally had no time to myself this past week or weekend, and I know that many people with very busy lives experience this nearly all the time. But I don't necessarily think that form of lifestyle is VERY OK. I believe that if we all should have a little wiggle room to pursue whatever we want and need, individually, to make ourselves happy.
Pushing yourself to give more and more and more ALL the time, giving 110% or whatever, is not actually that healthy. In our culture, I have been pressed into the thought that success = sacrafice all the time no matter what. Money is the great god of happiness and self-respect, and if you like your job or hate your job it doesn't matter, cause you have to do it. It's all the better if you hate your job- you are an instant martyr and can feel good about all the "giving up" you have been doing. It makes "getting" feel like you definitely deserve it.
(OBVIOUSLY not to say anything degrading to all those hard-working folks and certainly every situation deserves a case-by-case review.)
As I become more self-aware I am finding that I can set my boundaries with greater ease and less confusion. The world opens up and time to do art or go exploring outside becomes just as important as time to clean the bathroom (or whatever else unfulfilling but necessary time requirement might be demanded of me.)
Speaking of exploring outside, this past weekend's high-lites included several trips to the cabin and a general feeling that I wanted to be there more. I found alot of bones in the woods which went into the bone collection, a sort of creepy undertaking that I find fascinating. At this point I have several skulls and ribs, and I don't feel at all goth about it. I just think bones are interesting.
Anyways, happy monday.
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
Have you ever seen a goose, kissing a moose....
In other news I quit my babysitting job, which wasn't a tough decision to make. I do actually like the twins and thought they were way worth spending time with. But at this point in my life I needed to make the distinction of who I want to see myself as. A driven, successful adult or the part-time babysitter? There is no shame in child-care, but there is shame in not taking yourself seriously enough and settling for less, when there is so much more potential to be reached. SO much more.
This has been an exercise in psychological conditioning for me as well...hard to explain. I've been so used to taking whatever side jobs I could get and not really believing in my capabilities or my business. WHY? WHAT am I WAITING FOR? How many times have I proven to myself that virtually anything I want to do I can do? And why doesn't this register in my decision-making process?
To conclude, I've been making a giant push for the silhouettes and it truly is paying off. I had a day where I was just SO fed up with so many things that I had no choice but to sit down and consider my options and come up with some problem-solving moves. This memory stays with me still and guides the process by which I continue doing business.
When everything opened up and I realized that I can absolutely live by a theory no boundaries for myself it was immensely freeing. I know now that I am not stuck in a certain situation, that there is courage and opportunity enough to create a reality that I can feel uncompromised in and good about. There is the space to create my own boundaries, and the space to continue changing in whatever way is necessary.
Thursday, March 6, 2008
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
The early 90's have nothing on me
I found this great, although pricey, little belt bag in the Sundance Catalog. The fact that it brings to mind a fanny pack worries me slightly, but I think it could look pretty dope. Especially combined with another slouchy, detailed belt criss-crossed over or under.

Monday, March 3, 2008
Read it and Weep, Poland Springs!


..*They are aluminum.
..*NO icky taste if you put something besides H2O in it, or if you forget to wash it out for awhile.
..*NO chemicals that break down and seep into your beverage with time.
..*They will last for literally your entire life.
Sunday, March 2, 2008
Dare to dream

What the crap
Four Wafer-Thin Apparitions

Saturday, March 1, 2008
English Breakfast Tea

Friday, February 29, 2008
Everything's Opening (Up)
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
We're all moving on up in life

Tuesday, February 26, 2008
important anouncement!
portabello mushroom marinated in balsamic, grilled whole
thick slice of sourdough bread, toasted
roasted red pepper
fresh basil
melted swiss
a little sprinkle of coarse salt
yum yum yum
Cards for the peevish
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
A weekend of fine fishes
Instead we did a lot of eating out:
Saturday:
Quabbin Woods, Petersham. Good basic breakfast. However, if you are ever around West Brookfield, please for your own good eat at Mason's Grille for breakfast and get Eggs Blackstone. Or anything else.
Homemade French Onion Soup at my folk's house
Then! I got to Picasso's in Barre to meet Jess, Tara, and her friend Audrey for drinks and ended up with a Ceasar Salad and 2 Spiced Swizzlers, which was a mix of muddled fresh lime and fresh ginger, chambord, simple syrup, and seltzer. Really, really yummy and light.
Sunday
Brunch buffet at Gardner Ale House. Good food, lots of choices, and a free mimosa. The food was a little chilly at the point we got there, but we were there at the end. $14 well spent.
Organic turkey dinner at my parent's. Wait- LOCAL, organic turkey brined for a full day beforehand. Stuffing with shitake mushrooms. Tangy cabbage, creamy mashed potatoes, sweet potatoes with cranberries. This meal was even better than Thanksgiving.
Monday
Dinner at Baba Sushi, a brand new sushi bar in Wootown. Oh MY GOD! So good. I have never had such good raw fish in Boston, Northampton, or Worcester. We got the Peacock roll, White Tiger maki, a special roll, black marlin + bass + yellowtail + salmon sashimi. We were with a crowd who were all sharing and it went fast. Such delicate, rich flavors. The drinks were strong and also expensive ($8.50 for a vodka and cranberry.) If you are feeling adventuous get the oyster shooter for an appetizer. Make reservations beforehand because it is a tiny little restaurant.
I know that eating lots of good food is not necessarily the way to be all hot and svelte, but baby, I can't help being a foodie.